hello life, i want you back :(

Monday: 9-4 school, 6 Japanese (i seriously have to start mugging hard for the quizzes. 5/10 is really bad to me)
Tuesday: 9-1 school 6 Chiharu
Wednesday: 9-1 school.............. and I didn't know that i was supposed to, but apparently i was supposed to work at night? Was so so so so uber extremely upset when i was told. Emily called me and told me my manager called her to say that like, I was supposed to work and I wasn't there. I ASKED HIM YESTERDAY, AND HE TOLD ME NOTHING OF THE SORT.

Me: So when do I need to work?
Him: Everyday
Me: (thinking: wtf. joking?) Tomorrow I want to have a rest, i'll come on Thursday night and Friday afternoon?
Him: Okay. What about weekend? You said weekend can work one day right?
Me: Ya okay i work whole day on saturday.

AND HE ANGRILY TELLS ME THAT I WAS SUPPOSED TO WORK? FUCKING TELL ME LAH. so angry that i kept screwing up. oh man. thank god colleagues are just love. there's a new girl called Fiona, vietnamese with really big eyes. haha. so today after doing DSS & BMGT project (although i feel that I've done absolutely nothing for DSS, im so damn sorry to my group mates :( ) i went home and was happily using my computer enjoying my free time when suddenly Emily calls at 6.30 and my blood pressure rises from 60 to 100.

i reached at 7.30, fuming, and he said something about me not being angry and i snapped back instantly, 'just tell me EXACTLY when i am supposed to work later' and he gives me some shit about the schedule that i submitted. so apparently im supposed to work..... everyday? except for mondays because i have japanese class. kept snapping at him. until work ended, kinda calmed down. then i talked to Leon(fulltimer colleague) about my schedule and he was checking with me what time i'd worked the previous week.

Leon: what time did you work on sunday?
Me: 12.30-3, at night im not sure. just put 6-9
Leon: Huh! So little meh?
Me: Just put til 9
Leon: No lah where got so little
Me: Nevermind, it doesnt matter just put until 9

and i almost cried at that point i have no fagging idea why. im so weak. im so easily triggered and when this trigger... triggers? im just so fucking helpless. i need Anger Management, like seriously. hahaha. Loacker just keeps getting better and better! work tomorrow night, friday afternoon, and saturday entire day. next week, tues wed thurs fri night. But he says he'll revise my schedule cause i went all anal about actually having homework to do and once again i was almost in tears.

what a ranty post hahahaha. i think nowadays everyone's so damn stressed. fuck, yet to do POA. i totally forgot. GOODBYE

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