but you wont get to see the tears i cry

Seems like just yesterday, you were a part of me
I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight, everything it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong

Now I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
I’m barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything, opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright, for once in my life
Now all that’s left of me is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside

Cause I can’t breathe, no I can’t sleep
I’m barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me, then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you, it kills me now
No, I don’t cry on the outside anymore
Anymore

Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I’m torn into pieces, can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

abcxyz.

I try to breathe
Memories overtaking me
I try to face them but
The thought is too
Much to concieve

I only know that I can change
Everything else just stays the same
So now I step out of the darkness
That my life became 'cause

I just needed someone to talk to
You were just too busy with yourself
You were never there for me to
Express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface
I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made

So where were you
When all this I was going through
You never took the time to ask me
Just what you could do

I only know that I can change
Everything else just stays the same
So now I step out of the darkness
That my life became 'cause

I just needed someone to talk to
You were just too busy with yourself
You were never there for me to
Express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface
I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made

But I never meant to fade away
I never meant to fade..

I just needed someone to talk to
You were just too busy with yourself
You were never there for me to
Express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface
I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made

I try to breathe..

codeX.

actually; you're not so bad

at least; you have eyes
to see what --- feeling

at least; you'd speak
to ask whats wrong

at least; you know
how to treat a girl

at least; you have the guts
to say i love you"

at least; you're always
always here for ---

and know that you're always in --- heart


wvlosv iemute tiimbd hwsyek lismlo olyoor (:

WITH LOVE;

TO MY MOTHER :

i have to admit, though youve been a very nice mum and everything;

sometimes i really just really hate you. sometimes i really just really hate myself. cant you understand the words LEAVE ME ALONE and DONT TOUCH MY STUFF?! and wtf is your problem im just going out and you have to suspect EVERYTHING oh wow i might as well tell you im going to rob a bank or maybe COMMIT SUICIDE disgusting bitch wont you just shut up sometimes youre really really a pain.

...

without a doubt
im never gonna be your

beautiful "punk rock princess"
(as del says it.)

and youre never gonna be my


charming "garage band king"



heaven isnt fair


at least



not to me. :) guessit.

:D kewlz

KEWLZ! im blogging. lol. damn la i want photoshop. I NEED A NEW LAYOUT!. ): *scowl*