I give her the white nut and she is elated. I gobble up the chocolate chip very quickly. Then I am downstairs and I walk the wrong way, then along the slope someone horns at me and I walk away. As i pass the shops I realise the grass has grown.. a little taller than usual. Why havent I? The green man turns red which means 'stop' and I stop. SGC8159A, GX4304M, SFP8768H, SJG8358K, SDB1120U. Then I go when it tells me to. Fancy that, instructions from a rectangular black box wih people inside of it. I wonder how they became red and green. I cross the road and take out a pen but it is the wrong one, so I put it back and take another. I am on the bus. The roads are a beautiful mess. Everyone is driving everywhere in all directions but nothing.. happens. It is like a roller coaster. I stop for a while and look around and the roads have become straight. There are signs everywhere. Yarwood Ave, Welcome to Mayfair Park, Dunearn Rd, Slow, <--, Ascot Rise. I think that maybe we are all stupid and need them to make up for our lack of memory. Memories.. I don't want to be left with none. I get off the bus and proceed to Hell.

The wind rustles my hair a little and I guess that is His way of showing me that I am not alone. I am here, and I am afraid.

x x x

heavy rain. unlocatable bug in my room. pillow, bolster, blanket to sofa. POA, sleep.

so much uncertainty.

i forgot to mention.

earlier on at Macs...

Yule: McChicken with no lettuce (to Counter Staff)
Me: WTF?!?! thats like a friggin' piece of meat with two pieces of bread?!?!?!
Yule: YA, WHAT?!?!

moments later...

Me: Double Cheeseburger no pickles (to Counter Staff)
Yule: OI WTF NO PICKLES?!?! wtf cheryl (blah blah blah blah)
(he was just trying to be gl cause i gl his mcchicken. haha.)
Me: What, you like pickles?
Yule: NO haha i also eat double cheeseburger without pickles

*!#&*(!@&#(*!&@$ Nurdy.

just got back from a.. kinda weird but rather exciting night with the 2/11-4/6-4/7 guys. went to look for them at dhoby after japanese, then they wanted to go to nh prom so we proceeded to swissotel only to find that there was no nh prom there. Thanks ah Yule. called up my junior and found out its at Swissotel Merchant Court which is at Clarke. they didnt know how to go there so i called up Emily and she gave instructions on how to walk there (♥!!)

when we reached they were crowning king and queen and the guys were like saying the girls cmi and stuff haha. Damien was kind and Olivia was queen. wow. totally... weird. it didnt look very grand either, in my opinion. nh prom hit by recession HAHA. after that walked, walked, walked very far and finally took a bus down to Bukit Timah, lan at IRC til about 2am+, won both Yaye. a bit of macs and then off to Hong Yang's house. his house is like nice in the morning man they look like cottages or something. haha. at night you cant see anything. and he has this really cute Beagle called Rocky. i shouldve taken some pictures of the dog. oh man. so adorable. he has like really sad longing eyes.. i like to call him an imaginary dog cause i thought these kind of dogs only existed in big countries like the US. like, not a common sight in Singapore. we watched 28 days/weeks i dont know haha and it was kinda lame, had some champagne, slept on the sofa after that. i like sleeping on the sofa! woke a few times, mom called in the morning and nagged..... so me and hs went to tell hy that we were leaving and he's like 'there's breakfast' which is totally wow. like, we drink his champagne and sleep all around his house make noise watch movie play games and yet there is breakfast!!! for each of us!!!!!! okay maybe exaggerating but i really think its nice. or maybe im just a breakfast person. i like breakfasts :3 luncheon meat ftw!!! soooo after that took a bus back home and yes now i guess i shall skip POA as well. i am such Dead Meat. :(

woodlands later after school, PS3PS3PS3!!!!!!

♥ ♥ ♥

exhausted.

work was.. tiring. mere three and a half hours &yet, i dont know what to say. was kind of upset when i left. so tired now and i have to do macro which i didnt know i have to do and im so fucking stupid i have no idea how to answer the question. im dead.

sometimes you convince me that i'm just plain stupid.

many a time i tell myself something... like...
'no, eat it after you've bathed. NO, NOOOOO!!!'

.. but yet..... it's so difficult and now that i've finished my double cheese sandwich it's on to the PB&J one. love love love. :3

nothing much happening lately i guess. work, work, work. out with samantha yesterday, work today and work tomorrow(that wasnt supposed to be until a few hours ago when my boss asked me if i'm free tomorrow). schedule for next week:

monday - 9-4 school 6 japanese
tuesday - 9-4 school 7 madagascar II (initially was supposed to work, thank god for movies!)
wednesday - 9-1 school 6 chiharu
thursday - 9-1 school 6 chiharu
friday - 10-12 school, SITEX
saturday - SITEX
sunday - SITEX

hokay i dont know why i like to work so much and get myself all stressed with schoolwork and stuff. haha. DSS presentation/test next weekkkk. argh. i really want to do well this sem :(

okay the doorbell just rang and i peeped outside and i saw a dark figure and i didnt think it was andre and i thought maybe it was my dad and i was a little afraid i opened the door and um, two policemen were outside and they kinda scared the shit out of me. asked if anyone called for the police.... by the name of.... julie?(he seemed rather unsure himself) so i went to ask small (her name is judy) but she said it wasnt her and they asked me about my neighbours who um. were screaming at each other earlier on when i came back but i think now they're not really screaming anymore. the mom is always like this once in a while, like, she'll start going all 'FUCK YOU' and smashing stuff and things like that. wonder if i'll be like that next time. i hope not. i want to be a good mom! i like babies :3 back to the point yes they asked me a few questions and i was like all uh.... and stuff and then they asked if i was sure that nobody called cause they were given my unit number and i said no i dont think so and he was kinda friendly now and okay i closed the door and locked it again.

i like to put my hands in the ice bucket. i like to stand in the wine cellar. i like orange juice. :)

any parties interested in working in SITEX selling fujitsu laptops, let me know!

x x x

no remorse cause i still remember;

CULTURAL POTPURRI WOW.

rather disappointing, i guess. the only part i liked was the teacher part (and that doesnt mean i thought they sang well) oh and the nanhua idol was not bad haha. picts picts picts:

MR FOO PMG hehe. BLim still freaks the hell out of me, and Mr Ng still hates me. clarissa, late record holder, im second runner up, and wendy's...... the slut. HAHA. saw mdm yong omg Mamaaaaaaaa :D then cabbed, intending to go to bukit timah market and met Samanthaaaaa and david and aaron like wow haha. so we all went for some prata. and then home. i love my babyyyyyy ♥

the smile when you tore me apart.

x ♥ x

just moments ago....

*leans on Brendan*
Brendan: Dont lean on my I'm not a Pillow!!!

*comes up*
*leans on Brendan*
Brendan: I said I'm not a Pillow!!!
*comes up*
*leans on Brendan*
Brendan: If you do that one more time I will take cane and beat you.

& i turn to look at him and his eyes are gleaming, with a melancholic sadness amidst a stern look.

i love this little boy, haha. ♥

Serene, Serene!!!!!!!!!

From Seng Guan's blog: "The bus ride was sleep-inducing.
and and. I was supposed to meet them at PS entrance , but i took a bus and alighted at Somerset, thinking it was Heeren.
Then I received a sms from aiko, "u reach ps alr?" (sth like that)
and i went F U C K.
had to walk back again, damn.
So we were walking around PS trying to find a SUITABLE present for beta. There were many interesting things in ActionCity, SERIOUSLY LOL.
But it was decided he was too emo for these things, hahah. So we went to 77th Street , hoping to get a shirt or what for him. We walked around around and around for a couple of times , but couldnt decide still . Then we decided , maybe some accessories for him?
Store person: Can i Help?
Aiko: What to give emo person ?
Store person : You want to zuo nong him ah? (are you trying to make fun of him ?)
LOLwth
We went over to Waraku to makan for dinner. We all had rice but only aiko had cold soba.
I tell you , her plate was damn grand, still got one bunch of branches somemore. wth .
They must have a tree ready inside the kitchen.
We were like the only ones left in the restaurant after that.
It was near 11. Aiko's still having fun with her cold sabo with branches dish.
We're all done and looking at her.
Then mad went on and on about going to the toilet.
she and aiko went in.
Out came them with a chocolate cake to surprise beta.
Seriously . Out of ALLL places, the toilet. out of all cakes, you chose chocolate cake. ROFL"

DSS teacher just summoned me to answer his questions.... and... i dont know how to use the nest IF thing. im dead. omg. he hates me :( :( :( :( :( DSS tution pl0x

as much as i want(ed) to know more about you, i think it's best i not know.

avenue Q~ :D met Samantha at Marina Square for lunch! Kenny Rogers for lunch. blah blah blah

sat at Macs for a while then to esplanade toilet to wait for Angela and Earl. blah blah talking to clarissa on the phone right now and getting very distracted. blah blah blah

...?

AVENUE Q! :D

beautiful set...

Conclusion: The Internet is For Porn. & its okay If You Were Gay

cabbed down to KAP Macs after the show and David drew on Samantha's hand.

Aaron & Steve... hahaha

and like Steve was telling me all about his knowledgeable knowledge, how to deform babies and kill someone with a single needle/injection etc etc and then on to telling me about religion, and he took my pen and foolscap and wrote G on it and said about Jesus having 12 disciples and wrote 12 beside the G and i stopped and asked him what the G represented and he said G-ejus. I cried laughing. But he IS really smart!

a while back, converstaion with cindy. hilariousssss. hahaha. kbai gotta bathe do dss and plan tomorrow omg cultural potpurri.